Just Me

Today was a challenge because I had bad dizziness and headaches this morning. But it would seem that my muse just didn't care! There were poems to write! I was trying to finish my poetry book earlier than the Halloween deadline and especially before Monday since my youngest has a birthday on Monday and, well, all the birthday prep is gonna keep me busy! Time to work on this book during that time? The chances are very slim. So I wanted to finish it EARLY!   Specifically, before the weekend.   But it seems like my brain was at war with itself. I had the dizziness going on, the headaches going on (they happened on and off all day) and my muse struggling to get me to write despite all of that!   Even so, I did manage to write today. And I managed to get some reading done, too! Yay!   Yes, I try to do things when I have headaches, chest pain, back pain and even the dizziness (as long as the dizziness is mild!). But sometimes, I understand these things me...

  Today was a really good reminder of why I decided NOT to try to follow any kind of schedule on a Friday. Fridays can get a little crazy, and that’s what this particular Friday was. Mondays can be crazy too, but I usually do try to stick to my schedule on Mondays.   But Fridays? Nope. Forget it. I gotta leave as much time available to get done what needs to get done on a Friday. I try to finish things on a Friday. Just wrap things up. That will usually take longer than the time set aside for it in a schedule. So I stick to my To Do list and try to get as much done there.   And I did get some things done today. I got ideas for poems for the TWO new poetry books I am writing, so I wrote them. (Yes, I am writing two poetry books this month. Along with four nonfiction books.) I now have an idea for the cover for the one poetry book I started writing first this month. Now if only I could figure out a title! I know I could give it one of the titles of the poems but, ...

  This morning, I woke up with a big smile on my face. The first thing I said was, “I made it to four years.” And despite being too excited to sleep last night, going to bed later than usual, I still managed to wake up at the new time per my new schedule. Actually, earlier than my new time, but like many instances in which I wake up earlier than when it is time to get out of bed, I lied there for a while, thinking about my day ahead.   And specifically, what this day was.   Today is four years that I have been sober. It was four years ago that I woke up in a hospital room after spending most of the night fighting off alcohol-induced pancreatitis. That day – October 12, 2017 – was Day One. Little did I know that I was at the beginning of a long journey in which I would no longer be drinking. Up until then, I had tried to kick the drinking habit twice, without success. This time, I had vowed, I was going to give up drinking for good. And so far, four years later, ...