Was I Ready? No. Will I Try Again? Yes!

“Every time I try to DO something, things go wrong!” This is a common complaint I make when once again, my attempts to accomplish a goal go horribly wrong. I have been saying this for years because, yes, my plans get thwarted! Sometimes I chalk it up to my chronic case of having bad luck or because of a huge misunderstanding that ruins EVERYTHING (like a friendship I had for years that a “friend” ended over one such misunderstanding). Or I just chalk it up to life knocking me down all the damn time.

 

Well, I may get knocked down, but I’m still going to get back up!

 

But now I am saying that very thing again, because, once again, my plans were shot down!

 

As part of creating this “new life” for myself after getting sober, I wanted to start being more physically active. In the past, I spent HOURS sitting down to write and read. And I’m doing it again! This damaged my health and made me neglect taking care of myself. I soon realized that I was going back to that bad habit so I needed to nip it in the bud!

 

But, apparently, I haven’t been able to do that yet. For a while, I was able to incorporate workouts into my daily routines, but then I stopped.

 

And I realize that I need to get back on that again!

 

The thing of it is, I had already hired a trainer. I thought I was ready! I thought it was time for that lifestyle change.

 

But I guess I was wrong.

 

It’s not just that bad habit which has been keeping me from doing my workouts, though. It’s also my poor health. I have been getting those headaches again and my medications make me really sleepy. And I have been getting sick a lot.

 

The reality is that I am not in good health. I thought that after seven years of being sober, my health would be better. But, unfortunately, it is not. I guess 20+ years of excessive drinking really did a number on my health, and it’s going to take a lot longer to recover. I am getting there, but it’s a slow process.

 

So I need to focus on two things in order to reach my fitness goals: I need to improve my overall health and make exercise a part of my daily routines – somehow!

 

I tried to bring the training into my life when it was not the right time for it to happen yet. It DOES need to happen, I know this, but not just yet. I need to work on the discipline of exercising every day. I need to get that routine going in my life and find a way to make it happen consistently while trying to balance everything else.

 

I guess I just wasn’t ready to start training yet. But achieving these goals is very important to me, so I will try again when I know that I can consistently put to use the routines that I need to have in place.