Trusting the process

 

I have been working on something all year long: Learning how to do things that I want to be a part of my life. Not the life that I have right now, because I don't have the life that I want right now. I am CREATING the life that I want right now. In fact, I have been devoting all year to creating it. That was my plan in December 2020, right after I finished writing my nonfiction book (which a publisher is interested in). So, I decided to get started and learn all about those things. (There are more things that I am planning to learn how to do, but they are just things that I want to be able to know how to do and won’t play a “daily role” in my life.) But at the same time, while I was learning all of that stuff, I kept wondering: Where am I going with all of this? How will these things play a role in the life that I want to live?

 

This morning, I finally got my answer. It just all fell into place. I grabbed a notebook and a pen and wrote it all down.

 

You know how Jimmy Neutron cries out "Brain blast!" when he is inspired? That's the moment I had this morning. I had a brain blast.

 

So I wrote down my "weekly agenda" as well as my "weekend agenda." I figured out how everything would fit into the "new life" that I want to live.

 

And it's very exciting to have that all figured out! The even better part is that these plans will allow me to continue working from home, which is what I pretty much have decided to stick with. I just can't give up the ghostwriting or writing books. I truly feel that is my calling. It is what I need to be doing.

 

This reminded me of how I have seen just how important it is to "trust the process." Sometimes I get ideas to do or say certain things, but I don't know why. I do them anyway, trusting that whatever it is that is supposed to happen will be revealed to me in due time. Sometimes we just have to jump right into things even if we don't know for sure if we are ready to even get started. When I started writing that book in late 2020, I had no idea where I was going with it. I was just inspired to write it. The words came to me and I wrote them all done. It was when I was several chapters into that book that I finally understood just what kind of book it was meant to be, and what purpose it would serve.

 

This isn’t the first time this has happened. In the past, I started gathering materials and books that I didn’t need just yet, but I knew I would need them eventually. I knew that I was going to be doing things later and working on things, and I would need these materials for that purpose. I didn’t understand why I was buying those books or those materials, but I understood that I would figure it out later on. And I did. I realized those would be things I would be working on in my future.

 

I have been like this on many occasions, even with people. I just got a feeling that somebody needed to be in my life for some purpose, even though I didn’t know WHY just yet or what role they would play. It was like “I need to meet that person” or “I need to know that person” or “I need to work with that person” for some reason that would be revealed to me (us) in the future. Even if circumstances were not ideal at the moment, I knew that the circumstances would be eventually. I just had to give it time and do what I felt I must do in the meantime.

 

This kind of thing also rings true with how we should "trust our gut" or to "go with our instincts" when it comes to things and people. Certain things just have a "feel" to them that we know we must follow through on. If we get a feeling to avoid something or to stay away from something, it's a good idea to trust that instinct! But if we feel compelled to do something, start something, say something or to start talking to someone, then it's a good idea to do that too. Sometimes, things just have a way of revealing themselves in due time. As we work on things and nurture relationships with people, all of the pieces eventually fall into place and we understand where we are going with it.

 

I am very pleased and happy that I now finally understand what direction my path must take. I now know where I must go in order to create the life that I want to be living and what I must do to make it all happen. This process has certainly changed me. I am not the same person I was at the beginning of the year. So much has happened and so much has changed. I am not where I want to be yet – I still have a ways to go – but at least now I have a better understanding of where I am going. I now know what it is I must do, what role everything will be playing in my life, and how I can make it all work.